Sometimes change requires the divine alignment of planetary conditions, a good 'talking to' by a beloved student, one's readiness,... and a dreidel.
Since moving away from the city I have been grieving for a life lost and at the same time shedding skins of a death that never happened. The full truth of what I experienced with my fiancé, now husband seeks expression in a book I have yet to write. For a peek into the arc of life and death that became our reality, read my blogpost 'What does your body know?'
Okay so back to the dreidel and such. I had a visit from a dear student that I have not seen since I moved from LA. Her presence proved to be a lightning bolt. Like a 'hit' of tough love, she challenged me to fully OWN my gifts of healing and teaching, to own my talents and abilities and share them in greater ways with the world. She did all of this with a smile. I decided to inhale this hit of tough love, unlike Bill Clinton who did not inhale.
This student confirmed the value of my worth by insisting to pay for my time. This amazed me because our communication through Facebook did not clearly confirm that we would share a 'professional session' of yoga, meditation, or reiki, nor that I would expect to be paid at all. In fact I assumed we would meet for coffee and simply enjoy each other's company. And besides, I talked as much as she did during our 'meeting'.
After paying me for my 'time', I knew my only service was to accept and say 'Thank You' with sincerity. I could not refuse her offer as I had just read a passage from Florence Scovel Shin's book 'The magic path of intuition' which emphasizes the importance of accepting payment from others when they so extend it, even when it appears they are working out their own abundance 'dance'. For it would deprive them the feelings of abundance they are seeking to demonstrate.
How could I deny her the experience of extending in abundance consciousness? Especially as part of her woes included financial uncertainty. She next insisted on buying me lunch too. In this way she demonstrated not only her certainty of 'abundance consciousness' for herself, but also the value she sees in me.
As we made our way from the park where we met, I mentioned a possible visit to Crystal Fantasy, a metaphysical store here in Palm Springs. On the weekends there are several intuitive readers offering services for a donation price. I've had my heart set on getting my palm read since the ravens around here have been cawing at me 'palm', 'palm', 'palm'! My friend was open to being guided to the right 'reader' for some light on her path too, so we decided to pop into this mystical store prior to lunch.
I found myself sitting in front of Patrick Harrington a famous trance channel who amusingly offered me many elixirs of light. One of the most potent offerings came in a question he asked while reading my palm. "Why don't you daydream anymore?" Whoa- stop the press... He's right. Why don't I daydream anymore?
In the past half year I have somehow thwarted my dreaming to extend only as far as my bubble of immediate third dimensional needs.
This includes fixing the car, paying rent on time, and having healthy food to eat. With all of these basic needs feeling more pressing than a 'need' to daydream, I had forgotten the fullness of who I am in this daydream realm- and so who I am in this world. I had forgotten the power that lies in exploring the seeds of calling in my heart. While prayer and meditation are regular practices at chez Thomas-Theall, I must say the practice of conscious daydreaming is an old friend I now invite back into the tool bag!
Who I am? What is the biggest, brightest version of me doing and being when I allow myself to daydream? The combos of my dear student's visit in conjunction with Patrick's offering jumpstarted me to re-learn and so remember how to color outside of the lines when it comes to using my imagination.
Oh yes, my imagination was dusty. It was dusty and rusty like an old lawnmower wheeled out from the garage that had to be 'tried' a few times before it started. Once the motor of my imagination started, I could not ignore the feelings of expansion in my body. What is this feeling? Oh yes, it is sheer joy! Old scenes emerged from the deeper parts of my mind as holographic pictures emanating from my heart. I like to think of them as the 'greatest hits' of my subconscious mind! They are the movies I like to see in my mind. They are the pictures that light me up, make me smile and catalyze excitement in my every cell and fibre. They are pictures that show me how be more of my authentic Self. And they reside in you too.
I believe we all house seeds of calling. I believe the seeds we each hold in our hearts are wired in alignment with a much larger heart, and a plan of peace and joy for this planet. I believe the seeds of calling within each of our hearts are here to show us 'where to go' and 'what to do'- that we may meet our greatest joy. It is here we meet others who have realized their greatest joy too. Wow, can you imagine how we will light up the world from a collectively sustained frequency of authentic joy?
The pictures in our hearts invite us to participate fully in life. This can be frightening, but only because it is a muscle mostly atrophied in us, as the world does little to engage society in practicing faith and trust in accessing the authentic parts of our collective soul. The watering of these seeds (the practice of active daydreaming from the heart) serves to connect us to our joy, our truth, and with like-minded beings. Can we fulfill a realization of unity consciousness, of one-ness in this way?... That we may bridge Heaven on Earth? I say YES!
So I propose these questions to you.
"Who are you? What is the biggest, brightest version of you doing and being when you allow your Self to daydream?... and What would you daydream about if you had the next hour to do so?" I invite you to not only make time, but to take time to daydream. Many of you reading this have ample opportunity while sitting on the bus or train to explore long periods of time. Simply let your mind drop to your heart and explore what resides there.
For example I have a student who has a dream of starting a bee farm to make honey. He gets so jazzed about it, you can see his whole face and eyes light up when he talks about it. His energy literally becomes larger, and excited in a positive, palpable way. But... Then his energy begins to shrink, and he slowly becomes despondent stating he has a 9-5 job and can't see how it will happen. Well, that's because he is trying to figure it all out in a 'sensible way' with his logical mind. Yet when he drops into his heart and simply plays with the idea of how it could happen, suddenly all the limits of this world fall away and he is left with the sheer joy of possibility. And that's what we are after, the feelings our dreams give us. This is the feeling realization that stirs excitement in our mind and body. It's a frequency that tells the U-verse. Here I am, I am that, and so it is. Upon your sustained 'I Am'-ness, ultimately the U-verse folds to your vibration and in the highest forms can supply a way when there was no-way seen before. I will talk about this more later.
For now, if you require something or someone outside of your Self to offer it- I give you permission to relax. Now, drop into your heart space and let those pictures in your heart, the ones you know are yours, and only yours- let them have life through your attention. Dream your Self into them, and actively engage your imagination to bravely color outside the lines. Don't try to control the landscape in your daydream, simply be active within the pictures your heart shows you. Exercise your ability to play, like a child- within them.
As you resonate at this peak frequency, know you are indeed bridging Heaven on Earth through your peaceful existence and the joyful expansion given to your heart and mind through this exercise.
So to conclude, at the end of our lunch and before we parted ways, my student exclaimed "Oh I brought you a gift back from Israel!" She pulled the most spectacular dreidel from her purse. I have never before been gifted a dreidel, and wowed at its particular beauty.
In the week since my student's visit I have experienced a complete shift in my perception of Self and who I am. As the dreidel spins, so too do my chakras and expanding imagination. Something has been activated, spun, put into motion. I completely overhauled both of my websites to include more of who I am.
In my daydream I heard the U-verse offer; "Give yourself the gift of this title 'Heaven on Earth Ambassador'." I grinned, and wiggled around like a child- in excitement of what that could possibly entail! I know without a doubt that title is indeed the magic carpet I shall now ride, and also the means by which I will expand into the fullness of the gifts I am here to share with the world, and receive from beyond it.
Indeed, when the teacher is ready, the student appears.
Thank you Risa :)
Namaste with Love,
The dreidel is a Jewish variant on the teetotum, a gambling toy found in many European cultures. Each side of the dreidel bears a letter of the Hebrew alphabet: נ (Nun), ג (Gimel), ה (He), ש (Shin), which together form the acronym for "נס גדול היה שם" (Nes Gadol Hayah Sham – "a great miracle happened there"